When one does the math, 40/3=13.3. Multiply that by 2 and 26.6. Right now I am just over 26.6wks along, meaning hello 3rd Trimester! Also, holy cow, the end is near and I totally do not feel ready. In fact, I feel overwhelmed for no good reason and that has had me in three fits of tears already today. It’s just past noon too, plenty of more time to cry over nothing today.
Perhaps everything is just piling up and I feel like I cannot do it all. Yet my load is about to get smaller with school ending soon. Am I afraid of no longer being a college student? I have no stinking clue!!
Despite all the cloth diapers, crib being ready, nursing necessities purchased, etc, I have that annoying feeling of trepidation. It hit this time when I was pregnant with the boys too. I have no idea why I get this way. I know there is the added stress that hubby will be away for most of this trimester too and I keep trying to beat that fear down. I will not deliver her before he returns. However, if that happens, at least I will have my mom and doula.
It all just seems to be happening so quickly. I want a pause button. Better yet, I would love to indulge in some velvety dark chocolate and a glass of Port. Both I cannot do right now, but I have declared that those are what I want as “push presents.”
Enough of the emotional stuff, I do not need you, my lovely readers to be sogging up my page with tears over something that is beautiful. š
How am I feeling? Huge. My belly bumps into -everything-. My waddle is more pronounced now too.
How is Roz? She is measuring 3 days ahead as of week 25. My OB sent us for a follow up U/S and she was ahead instead of behind, wahoo! Now I have it in my head that she will be yet another big baby. At 25wks2days she was estimated to weigh 1lb15oz. According to a chart I found online, most babies weigh that at 27wks, that is where we will hit tomorrow. I can do this!
What has gone on that is new? I started a yoga class at church. Last week we did some insane stuff that I thought I couldn’t do and I broke the mental block and did it. I am pushing back against the “you can’t do that’s” because I know my mind will be yelling that at me as I go through natural labor and delivery. I need to ignore my silly mind. I know I can, I have done it before.
Hubby also met our doula yesterday and we all seem like a really good fit. I am anxious for the next OB appt so that we can all meet together as a birth team.
The bowels…yes, I went there. Hemorrhoids are no fun. I had those very badly with the boys. I am being very open here because many women just do not get told about them or how bad they can be. No matter how much fiber I added to my diet, no matter how much water I chugged, nothing helped. With our youngest, I actually had to get them pushed back in. Not a pleasant experience. All I have to say is: do your kegals and DO NOT lift heavy things (this includes children)! They do more than tone your lady bits, they help shrink hemorrhoids too! Luckily, I do not have them…yet. However, I am prepared if I do. Tucks and PrepH are in the medicine cabinet for when and if they arrive.
Eating stuffs: I have to eat less food more often now. Everything is officially crammed up against each other on the inside. Breathing is also interesting but yay for yoga, I can slip into that breathing pattern easily.
God bless!